And here we go....
As I laid in bed last night pondering the ever long list of errands chained to my ankle to do the next morning, I just stopped myself and listened to the rain dancing away on my rooftop. I cuddled with my fluffy down pillow and felt my blanket hug me, as if it was sweetly swaying me to sleep. I have not had this feeling for a long time. What I mean is, that kind of feeling you get right before you know you're going to have a good dream. Or when you know that once your eyelids shut, you'll be in a deep mindful trance of bliss. To me, a good night's sleep is an amazing reward. It's as simple as, good sleep = good day tomorrow.
Regularly, sleep and I have a bad relationship and I will vouch that sleep has a sporadic personality. One night it'll be sweet and cunning by allowing me to fall asleep so easily that I don't even remember closing my eyes. Or like the majority of the nights I have been having, it will make me toss and turn in bed and yearn for the need of sleep. Making me wish for it and long for it's arrival. Now that I think of it, I believe it is my mind and sleep that have the battles, not myself specifically, even though....technically mind and sleep are both still me. Sometimes I even wonder if my mind and sleep play tricks on me just for the fun of it and thinking about that is kind of creepy, might I add. I don't want to write crazy talk and believe that it's not possible for my mind and sleep to have a life of their own, but trust me....once night fall comes, it can very much seem like it.
Have you ever had a problem with sleep? Where you have so many things running through your head and so many things to think about, handle, solve, finish, start, or etc that sleep just seems to be that last battle of your day? This is a challenge every night for me. Sleep. I think I have a case of insomnia, but I don't mind it. It does keep me sane at the same time...allowing me to fully think through my thoughts for the next day; but I still wonder if mind and sleep are theoretically 6 year olds that like to mess with me to see how long they can keep me awake. Scientifically speaking, there are numerous solutions by popping a pill to allow myself a good nights rest, but the problem is...I'm no fan of taking medicine or pills, so no thank you in that department. I have read that there are also even ways of meditating, foods that will help you fall asleep, or good habits one can learn to increase the possibility of sleep...so maybe just maybe I can look more into that.
I wonder why though? Why, a tortured word in my vocabulary that always seems to abuse the verb "ask". I make myself laugh, haha. Back to the point...why is it that people have insomnia or issues with sleeping? Why does insomnia exists? How did it come about? I guess from my point of view, insomnia or issues with sleeping is just like a simple laugh or love. There can always be a reason why someone would love or an explanation for why someone would laugh, but it's nothing compared to a miracle, such as giving birth. No one questions why the greater power or whoever is up there, on why females were created to be the one who would have the ability to give birth, right? By the way though, if you do question it, let me know what the answer is when you find out. (: Insomnia can be the result of an everyday routine. Your climate, the people that surround you, or even just the weather? Sleep is either your friend or foe, never a frenemy.
I promise my intention of this blog is not to make you dizzy by taking you in circles, swerving your eyes and mind left to right with my thoughts, but this is how I process. I know, it can be a bit amusing so I hope you enjoy your read. I should probably stop typing now because in this sense, I really have not come to a conclusion at all? More of a thought processing blog. Hmmm, maybe I might add that on as a label for future reference because I will have lots of those, so beware. Haha.
Till then...good and restful sleep to all!
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